Thursday, July 21, 2011

I'm Fed Up!!

Okay, I'll admit, this is a blog about my weight, but I just have to put it out there, in the open, where I can't hide anymore. I'm fat. Yep, I said it. I weigh more now than I did the day I went in to be induced with Trent. And I'm kind of disgusted with myself. Chris says I'm fine the way I am. Other people say it, too. But I can't wear anything I used to, my back fat looks like mini-boobs(Ick, totally, with a capital I), and I'm hot all the time.

Initially, I blamed the weight gain on starting school again and being stressed. It definitely wasn't the fact that I was shoveling candy down my trap as I wrote anatomically correct terms in my notes. Nevermind that the size Large scrubs I'd bought were getting tighter and tighter. Then it was, "Oh, I've never been on birth control before so I'm sure that's it. My body's just not used to the hormones. I'm on my feet for 8+ hours per day, carhopping and whatnot. And I never sit down at home, always doing something around the house." Yet I eat burgers, fries with chili and cheese, and ice cream nearly every day. Well, I'm there, and it's free, so why not? I'll tell you why not... I'm fat! I feel like doo-doo, my feet hurt ALL. THE. TIME., and my hair is falling out the way it was after I had Trent.

I've had some people say I should get my thyroid checked, but I'm really thinking I should try to lose weight first. Before I got pregnant with Trent, I lost 35 pounds with Weight Watchers. I was the queen of the gym, working out 4-5 days per week, planning out a week's worth of meals, eating lots of salads and mixing up the ingredients, counting points like I was getting medal, and feeling great! I was down to the size I was when Chris and I met. I looked awesome!

So, here's what I'm doing: I'm going to eat a better breakfast every day. Since I have to work in the mornings during the week, I will make my coffee at home(I always do this anyway, but now I will put SF creamer in instead of my beloved Vanilla Caramel), bring my oatmeal with me and then eat some apples or a banana for a snack. If I'm there for lunch, I will eat either a grilled chicken salad or sandwich. Also, the chicken strips aren't all that many points, so I may chop one of those up and put it on my salad. And at night, since we're on a budget big time, I will cook for my family and eat only a small portion and supplement the rest with salad and fruit. I will eat fruit and FF popcorn for snacks and drink only water and diet soda. And I will reward myself with something non-food when I reach my mini-goals.

I will commit to working out once per week. I feel this is about all I can do, especially since we're down an manager, and I am working way more than I used to. I still need to see Trent and Chris a fair amount. Yes, I know I deserve to have more time to myself, but I also need to focus on family time as well. As I slip into this new-ish lifestyle change, I will slowly incorporate more work-out time.

I haven't decided whether I will post my stats for all to see. I think that is kind of a private thing. Maybe I'll post the number of pounds and inches lost per week or something of that nature. If you're the praying kind, please do so for me. Thanks so much!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Holy Hotness!

And, boy, do I wish I was talking about myself... :-)

In all seriousness though, it has been one of the hottest summers my husband or I can remember, and so early even. Every day, it starts out semi-tolerable, in the upper 70's. And then by 11:00 am, we are nearing 100. It's been pretty miserable trying to work and then come home to a house that is nice and cool, and then I realize I have to heat up the kitchen to cook. Ugh...

So, we've been trying to come up with ways to keep Trent and us cool, while entertaining each other. So far, we've come up with visiting splash pads, although I will admit I got burnt to a crisp last week, complete with the flu-like symptoms to accompany it. It was no fun. But soldier on we did. And that included going out to play early and late.

Also, we've taken to coloring, drawing, watching Finding Nemo, Cars and Kidsongs religiously. Trent has also been re-discovering some of his toys. We've reclaimed the Handy Manny Toolbench(which I forgot, is super-fun!), his Fisher Price Barn(always a good time), his kitchen set(he makes me eggs and spaghetti. A winning combination, if you ask me...) and all of his Hotwheels car. Fun times!

What have you all been doing to keep cool?